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The Relief of Stepping Back Feeling: defensively taking my time I don't want the job. It took a lot of thinking, a lot of careful consideration, looking at all the ways this could go, and I realized: I am hoping I don't get it. I want to apply, to say I tried, so I don't let my friends down by seeming like a coward, but... I don't want the job. So I am not going to waste their time by sending a halfhearted application. I don't want to move again, I don't want to be that damn far away from everyone, I don't want to leap right into a job I feel vastly unprepared for. I want to go back to school and learn more, not because I need it to get a job, because I need it to do the job well. And here I am, hoping you're not disappointed in me. (and if you are, fuck off. Go follow your own dreams, then you can start in on me.) Comments? 0 so far... | Procrastination finally grows some teeth - 2010-11-29 Necessity: the Mother of Invention - 2010-11-29 Enforced Work Ethic - 2010-11-28 A Week of Perfect Nothings - 2010-11-28 4 more days - 2010-11-27 Alms for the Poor? |