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"build your pedestal, honey, 'cause no one's got it ready for you with your neck so high" Feeling: detached are you Ophelia yet, do you want to be that Being this busy begins to make me feel separated from the world, after enough time. It starts to feel like I walk enclosed in in a display case, watching everyone through my windows, not quite touching because I can't, and waiting futilely for someone to break through and reach me. But there's no time, because I'm going going going going going. And I can't afford to stop, because if/when I do, everything around me crashes, and I always feel the broken edges later on. I don't want to perform the play tonight for strangers, so that I can walk out after curtain falls and smile blankly at people I don't know. I want to watch Friends. I want to write Nimsay's and my clich� story. I want to go see a movie. I want to hang out with the air force boys. I want to go Christmas shopping. I want to drive across the country. I want to do something that doesn't have a deadline or a lock-step schedule. There are times I feel like a clockwork museum piece. This is one of those times. Comments? 0 so far... | Procrastination finally grows some teeth - 2010-11-29 Necessity: the Mother of Invention - 2010-11-29 Enforced Work Ethic - 2010-11-28 A Week of Perfect Nothings - 2010-11-28 4 more days - 2010-11-27 Alms for the Poor? |