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Tell Me I'm Wrong Feeling: silent All the things I wish you would say are choking me. I can't ask you to say them. I can't tell you. I can't prompt you, hint you. Even words of love are only half strong if they're baited with pre-emptive ones. Like the mechanical "Love you", "love you too" on a telephone with a parent after you've been arguing all evening. I can't take the chance that, even with prompting, I will not get the answer I want. Because statistically, that is what happens, and I don't think I could take that tonight. I cannot expect you to read my mind. I cannot be angry with you for failing to do so. I cannot fault you for feeling the way you do, because I have done nothing to make you feel otherwise. I've been too afraid to try to tip your hand one way or another. For fear I'll tip too far. So I am here. Drowning. Unable to so much as speak, afraid of what will come out. When I say you probably don't want me around, all you have to do is call me a liar. That's all. That's it. Just tell me I'm wrong. There are times I really want to be wrong. Comments? 1 so far... | Procrastination finally grows some teeth - 2010-11-29 Necessity: the Mother of Invention - 2010-11-29 Enforced Work Ethic - 2010-11-28 A Week of Perfect Nothings - 2010-11-28 4 more days - 2010-11-27 Alms for the Poor? |