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Rejected (a.k.a. The End of the World) Feeling: sparkly Anyone remember when I used to write poetry? I wish that I still did, because it could be very satisfying at times. But now I feel as if my ideas have dried up- I look at all the things I wrote when I was younger and (even more) squirrelly-headed, and wonder why I can't seem to turn a phrase like that anymore. And since the majority of my poetry was so reflexive (aren't most amateurs'?), it seems almost egotistical to want to start writing again, to want to start thinking so deeply about myself again. Regardless, I came across this one while cleaning out old files on my craptop, about how I feel being a performer. It's interesting, because it's still appropriate; I wrote it almost four years ago. "Tinkerbell" Barefoot on the mirror's face Under the spotlight Give her dark You believe in her, and it keeps her alive. How long? before that smile How long? before she stops believing (I think this one, even though it's long and awkward, is hitting me hard at the moment, just because I auditioned for another musical with some of my friends from the last one, and I wasn't cast. Several of my friends were, but not me. I'm sort of being a child about it, I'm feeling rejected--because I was--and sometimes friends' loyal assurances are so much empty noise.) Comments? 0 so far... | Procrastination finally grows some teeth - 2010-11-29 Necessity: the Mother of Invention - 2010-11-29 Enforced Work Ethic - 2010-11-28 A Week of Perfect Nothings - 2010-11-28 4 more days - 2010-11-27 Alms for the Poor? |