Feeling: reckless
Listening to: Fiona Apple - "A Mistake"
Reading/Watching: Cold Mountain, by Charles Frazier

You know, if I took everyone's advice, I'd have to clone myself.

And then the original Katie would still do whatever she damn well pleases.

Although refusing to listen to good advice, when it's repeated over and over, simply because I don't agree with it, is equally foolish. I know. You've all divided yourselves into two factions: yea and nay. Go for it and damn the consequences, or forget it and don't risk making things worse. I am biding my time and deciding which faction to side with, although it's very difficult for me to give up on someone. My hope always gets in the way.

But part of me just wants to make a mistake. A big, messy, risky one, with 24-hour gains and month-long pitfalls. Part of me turns a blind eye to past tears, and that's what scares me.

But I just really, really, really want to run the risk of screwing up royally. Does going into it with eyes open ever change the outcome?

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